The Beauty and the Beard
The passengers
travelling on the bus westward from Côte-des-Neiges were squished together like
sardines. But Claire Wise held on to her seat across from the bus driver. Her
luminous and peaceful aura created an infinite space between herself and
others. At 94, Claire’s skin was full of wrinkles and age spots. Yet, her inner
beauty still radiated with no apologies.
She sat erectly with
dignity and self-assurance, clinically examining a young mother comforting her
crying baby.
Claire’s profile
possessed small and delicate features: crystal blue eyes framed with thinning
gray eyelashes and eyebrows; a button nose; and her lips were covered in a sparkling
nude lip volumizer.
But her lower chin
possessed a small patch of coarse gray hair; even her curly platinum dyed
mid-length hair could not hide it.
When she stood up to
get off at her stop and then descended those three bus stairs back to reality,
she did it with the grace of nobility.
In seconds, it was
obvious that she dreaded heading toward her apartment, which she had shared
with her late husband, Charles, for 25 years. The grief hit her in the middle
of the sidewalk. Gentle tears flowed down her face for Charles and her three
sons, who had moved away.
When the small wave of
grief subsided, Claire stopped in the entrance of her building and soothed
herself by saying,” Charles’s spirit is still with me.”
Planning had always
helped her cope with her panic attacks, which also always came before entering
her home, so she focused on what lay beyond the main doors. Claire immediately
mapped out how she would make herself herbal tea to relax after volunteering in
the geriatric ward during the morning.
Suddenly, she laughed,
remembering how the new volunteer, who was assigned to Glenda had a jarring experience.
Glenda had had hip replacement surgery and a bad case of OCD. Glenda insisted
that she wash her hands, sanitize them, put on the blue gloves, and sanitize
them before playing cards with her. She also made the poor volunteer sanitize
the new deck of cards before using them. And when Glenda lost her poker hand,
she accused the volunteer of cheating. That volunteer was the first to leave at
the end of the shift, putting her stuff away without saying a word.
Claire doubted that she
would be back.
Sadly, after these
thoughts, Claire’s anxiety crept back into her heart and stomach.
She reminded herself
that after her tea, she would find her cat Hope and place her on Charles’s
chair. The one right next to hers by the fireplace. She would take some of the
family albums, like she did every day, and go through them. Afterward, she
would put on some Frank Sinatra records and sing along.
But today, a new
thought entered her mind for something to do. She would look for her
granddaughter’s, Naomi’s, instructions to get to her emails on the iPad her
kids had bought her as a birthday gift.
These mental
preparations to enter her home comforted her and made her feel less alone. At
home, she felt the void the most; the loss of her family, which was scattered between
this reality and another reality.
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